its yet another Lunar New Year! woop woop! yeehaw. ok so anyway woke up this morning and got to thinking: man there are so many ppl who at one point or another, was a big part of my life. and sad to say, i've not kept in touch with (like at all! for quite awhile anyway) many of said people. i think of my pri sch friends [yin quan, joel, christine, zhengyang, brandon], my sec sch friends [bangballs, sunky], my jc friends [siska, jeremy-tanglin-gan], my bmt friends [neil, iqbal, kianzi], my bslc friends [yongteck, jingyi], my aslc friends [dean, nizam]. darn thats like 16 ppl. i feel a deep sense of gratitude towards these people (among others of course) for being a part of my life and influencing me subtly with their individual idiosyncrasies. and thus i am disappointed that i havent been able to keep in contact with them.
well anyway gonna leave the house soon and go visiting. somehow i just feel like im on a slightly different wavelength from my relatives. i mean im not against meeting ppl, its like i would much rather have a conversation with my dad's/mum's friends rather than my (sad to say) ugh-ish relatives. oh well. perhaps this yr will be different?
woohoo Chu Xi is upon us, which means tmr is Chinese New Year wooot. time for reunion dinners, reaffirmation of old acquaintances and fresh starts. love all kinds of new yr junk food as well. but im getting heavier and heavier shit. that's fine going by BMI but somehow i feel fatter. prob because i lost a damn lot of weight in BMT haha.
anw went to shoot pool with alvin derren zhikai edward and kenny yesterday. surprisingly im still not too sucky considering i havent done that in a really long time haha. lost once and won twice keke. OD'd on ribs at cafe cartel after that, before watching the 9pm Long Weekend at Cine.
oh yes, FINALLY managed to find someone who had this song to send it to me. love it.
(And) i was dying indside to hold you
i couldn't believe what i felt for you
dying inside i was dying inside
but i couldn't bring myself to touch youstrikes a chord somewhat if u take the
hold and
touch into metaphorical context.
as always when i happen to be online, i usually check out 2 bloggers who usually have very entertaining material. mainly rockson and xiaxue. rockson is funny as hell haha, what with the use (abuse maybe :D) of colourful language. vulgarities pepper his entries but not in an insulting way. his topics are usually pretty applicable to current events as well. now xiaxue on the other hand, is extremely controversial. she's gone from being the most recognised blogger in the region, to a well.. suffice to say, she's fallen from grace. i used to think that "hey her posts are just tongue-in-cheek and ppl should just lighten up and get a life". this is especially so regarding the whole handicap toilet issue.
after reading her latest entry about moderating comments though, i was appalled. sickened. angry. etc. she basically belittled everyone other than herself. making callous jokes. being so self-absorbed and using terms like "my superior intellect". she also talks about how she purposely deletes long replies, thus preventing them being published, from ppl who have criticized her. what? does she think she's maddox now? it's not even remotely funny. well i hope she was angry when she wrote the post because if she meant it to be funny, it's in extremely poor taste. i could go on, really.. about how she says the "general public is stupid" and such. IMHO the only stupid ppl are those who are still willing to be nose-led by her into believing that such stuff is actually funny. i find no humour in a blog entry dripping with arrogance and vindictiveness. now if perhaps that tshirt company will stop sponsoring her then she will get the message that quite plainly: she's turning into a grade A
arsehole jerk.
watched star idol just now. shucks man leann got voted off. sweet looking girl. was thinking it was either her or leo, hoped for the latter to be voted off naturally. to be honest i think lincoln has the most potential cos his face allows him to act in a variety of roles, villian, dumb, boy-next-door etc. will be rooting for the girls to go all the way of course hah.
ok shall go and sleep and wake up at 4.30 to watch the 2nd half of the man utd blackburn match. RRRRooney RRRio RRRRuud RRRRossi!!!
hmm well today being a monday/wednesday, could go for self exercises at 3.30 and couldnt decide whether to play soccer or tennis today. on one hand, having brought both rackets and a tube of balls all the way from home to clementi and NOT play was well, dumb; but on the other hand cant pass up the chance to play soccer right haha. so had the best of both worlds, played both tennis and soccer. but we got thrashed pretty quickly so played tennis whilst waiting for our next turn. maaaaan havent played tennis in soooo long. forehand strokes have become shit. backhand strokes though, were at least slightly more consistent, not quite sure why. and yes, consistently in, not consistently outside the court, thank you very much. hmm anyway prob inspiration for suddenly deciding to play tennis was because i watched bits of the marcos baghdatis vs ivan ljubicic match heh. well feeling good about myself today.
-got some exercise
-refreshed tennis strokes
-avoided oily and unhealthy food
when i woke up this morning to check soccernet, i had a premonition of doom. however, it soon turned into joy when i realised that rio ferdinand scored a last gasp goal to given man utd the win over liverpool. i couldnt wait to buy the new paper cos whenever big matches like this come around, there's usually a 6-8 page spread of it in the new paper. at home, when i saw the rio ferdinand goal and the emotions of the players when he scored. i was overwhelmed. ok fine i teared a little too. i mean watching them i could almost feel as if i was part of this team that had just won a hard fought match against their bitter rivals. i was especially heartened to see that they fought with real purpose. with passion. i guess in a twisted sort of way, they are my heroes. and you cant really be totally ok when your heroes are down and out. i mean somehow you just need your heroes to be perfect and stuff. meh, everyone needs heroes methinks.
whatever the case, man utd won, and that's that!
abooga-booga! ok my life seems to have toned down abit, resulting in fewer stuff to blog about. everytime i see some controversial topic im thinking ok i can prob write enough for one blog entry. problem is, im NEVER near my com when said topics come around. and by the time i AM at my com, i've forgotten what topics they were haha.
ok so on this rare occasion when i actually can think of a topic, here goes. was reading this article in Today about how the writer feels that NS evaders shouldnt be called sons of singapore. the assertion was made on the grounds that they did not fulfill their duty to the country and thus we should not be so eager to claim them as our prodigal sons.
now in my view, this, is utter rubbish. yeah they were bold enough to evade, and the only penalty they incurred was the forfeit of a sum of money put up (a rather large one too). now knowing our good ol' govt, im convinced that they could come up with a tougher stance if they wanted to. probably something disadvantaging the family of the evader since in most cases, only the evader leaves the country yes? if the WHOLE friggin family moves, well sad, life sucks that way. so yeah, they DONT do anything other than to bar said evader from returning and yet after reaching the age of 40, even if he does return, they cant make him serve NS anymore anyways.
ok so pianist dude was given a paltry fine given his status. i agree that perhaps the penalty should have been heavier, im thinking higher fine and probably low pecking order in terms of stuff like applying for flat etc etc. now here's something i dont get: yeah sure he was let off rather lightly, the fine was nth to him. but people, stop your damn whining. geez, whine whine whine. boo hoo hoo. made a world-class pianist (i am not fit to judge, but it's been said many consider him world-class so im just quoting) CANCEL his friggin concert? wow! that's fabulous everyone. let's all give ourselves a pat on the back cos we forced a renown musician to cancel his act in singapore! not only that! with this in mind, everyone else who served NS during his time will now be happy that he has done his part! hmm let's see.. WRONG! freaking.. what he does now will not change the fact that he did not serve. his doing 100000 push-ups now will not reduce the load on past NSmen because duh, it's already over. so who loses out from making him cancel his concert? not him surely? he can just pack his bags and go perform elsewhere. perhaps leaving our shores once again. now people love stereotypes. nobody cares that we have low crime rates and high science and math scores. what they do like about singapore though, is how we provide them with endless talk-cock topics.
"didja hear about singapore, the place that wont even let u chew gum??"
"isn't singapore the place where they made that famous pianist dude cancel his concert"
"singapore? yeah yeah! i heard about that place. it's the city where everyone is so rigid in their thinking and people actually hold workshops on how to be creative"
on one hand, three cheers for the foreign talent schemes which provide us with ppl like itimi d*ckson and agu casm*r. their less than desirable conduct has been well-publicised in the papers. on the other hand, let's all turn away world-beaters with our lynch mob behaviour!
chalk up another one for singapore
thank you rossi! fantastic performance from the italian teenager. 2 goals, 2 assists! man it doesnt get any better than that. i was blown away by rossi and richardson's performances. rossi will develop into a top class players man. anw bought new paper today cos i wanted to read every single syllable regarding man utd's win. ok fine it was against burton, a non-league team. but still, wins are hard to come by these days. must enjoy.
gonna sleep, eyes v tired from staying awake since 4+ this morning.
woot played soocer again today. this time apart from joel and alvin, paul, kenny and derren and LTa jingal were there also. rained for like 5-7 minutes so the court was getting abit slippery. kenna blisters oww. too bad din manage to score/contribute greatly this time. but well slowly regaining fitness i hope. only good thing is made a nice fly-through pass with a toe flick haha. -almost- like the one rooney did to set up for ronaldo against bolton.
hmm man utd play burton today. nth against the minnows but man utd better give them a sound hiding in order to raise morale man. come on ppl!
ahh yesterday was monday, the start of a new work week. well i reckon its gonna be a rather long week, i mean i've been having 4 day weeks for like close to 2 months now? haha. what with christmas, new year, haji, medical appointments, and uhh mcs heh. after cominghome from work, found out that my parents were intending to go to chinatown with uncle kel and uncle kenzo so i thought long and hard about it: to go, or to stay and play dota. ah what the heck, i decided to go, can play dota any time anyways. on the way out was walking grandma to the bus stop and carrying her bag for her. then she said she's damn happy whenever i do such things. man.. sometimes its not like i want to ignore her or anything, nor do i find her irritating, hope she doesnt think so. its just that sometimes its so hard to strike up a conversation when theres nothing to be said. i mean my mandarin isnt exactly PRC ya know. yet i can just imagine how grandma feels: to have someone important to you not give u the time of the day? but when they do u feel exhilarated. oh yes, this feeling is all to familiar to me haha. it all seems so long ago now.
[darn it, the whole time im typing my right eyelid is twitching ever so slightly but its really uncomfortable]
oh yeah just played a game of dota, and totally owned with SA haha. ah well, gotta brush up and can team up with zh, josh, teng, ks etc and own other ppl mwahaha.
at times like this, i hate it that im a man utd supporter. i think of the 10 years of support that has been in vain. i bemoan the fact that i raise the red devil flag because my dad, uncles and granddad have all been fervent red devils as well. why do i even bother wasting my time. i think of the legions of fans worldwide who have made man utd the most supported club in the world, whose hopes rest on the soft, pampered and unmotivated shoulders of these millionaire assholes. its actually painful just sitting at home watching them.
i gave up watching the game before halftime. and now with a clearer head i attempt to think more rationally. the heart is missing, that much is obvious. they basically dont give a shit if they lose, or even get thrashed by their fellow mancunians. i fail to comprehend this, for even the lowest denominator in society is territorial. apart from the heart though, im thinking the head needs examining. for sure, after many successful years at the helm of man utd, alex ferguson has well and truly lost it. he is unable to get the best out of the immensely skilled but arrogant cristiano ronaldo. he keeps faith in mikael silvestre, who has had more than his fair share of opportunities to provide his incompetence. he sells phil neville and suddenly does not have a holding midfielder. fletcher, o'shea? gimme a break. we are in the process of rebuilding blahblah. DAMNIT who gives a shit about your excuses FERGIE! u have been rebuilding for donkey years and are no closer to the title.
i'll never forgive him for hemming and hawing on arjen robben, allowing chelsea to nip him. i recall a newspaper article mentioning that Brian Clough, father of Burton manager Nigel Clough, led Nottingham Forest to 2 consecutive Champion's League titles (or the European Cup as it was known then) and was never knighted. yet Fergie comes along, wins it once and gets the title.
i suppose one could argue that after an incredible treble winning season, the only way u can go is down. but Fergie, need u be so eager to go there? do the world a favour Fergie, take you and your chewing gum away from MUFC. let someone with actual hunger to succeed in the highest echelon of soccer replace you. Fergie, i applaud you for past success, but i abhor you for your lack of grace in recognising that most definitely, your time is up.
just reached home after yet another hella fun cohesion outing with my colleagues. last friday we went to eat at Lucky Plaza and then walked around at Far East Plaza. this week, we went to eat at Spageddies (haiz everyone knows it's spelt spagetty lor) then had coffee afterward at TCC at Peranakan Place. each outing seems funner than the last. progressively unleashing all the lame-ness inside haha. really enjoy the company of zhikai, alvin, derren and jon in particular. and minus derren the other 4 of us are fellow 2007 ord-ers haha. it's like as though its always a contest of lame jokes and dumb comments between alvin, derren and myself. was feeling particularly energetic today so told exceptionally many lame jokes haha. also almost had an altercation (ok fine, argument) with the TCC staff cos kenny ordered a cake but it contained alcohol inside, which he cant take. but anyway we fought our case and got them to replace the cake. not bad considering half was eaten haha. then again i wouldnt say we "fought" the case cos this kind of thing in F&B outlet, they sure replace. they have too much to lose otherwise. shiok. also more or less tied down with alvin tt we should go mambo again soon, just need to find a good date (the calendar kind, not the girl kind. altho im not opposed to the latter haha). hmm apparently im still in "LAME" mode. okok signing off in a really exuberant mood.
go d/l S.H.E's song 天灰 pls. it's gonna be number one soon. confirm.
hmm listening to Tian Hui by SHE atm. which reminds me, while watching the Ren Ci Charity show on Sunday, i happened to watch the part when SHE came on to perform. i was understandably rather excited at this because i've been somewhat of a fan since sec 4-ish when peter more or less opened my eyes to mandopop. so anyway my point is oh my gosh, Hebe looks absolutely fantastic. wow seriously she looked so pretty. even pretty than like 3 or so years ago, which in itself is a remarkable feat to achieve. only ever been equally blown away by Lin Chiling and Jessica Alba haha. anyway been enjoying my chinese music playlist. since the ratio of mandarin to english songs is like 1:19, must ensure that whatever makes the list is not just good, but great.
at the moment "am in the process of getting" the Phantom of the Opera OST [2004] which i no longer have since i reformatted my com. hmm just thinking about that show really brings back alot of memories, mostly painful. i guess whenever i think abt the show/album many events will invariably be linked with it. after all, it more or less was a significant milestone.
1. Always leaving lights on in rooms that have nobody inside?
2. Leaving the computer idle whilst doing other stuff?
3. Abusing the air-con?
then you are guilty of contributing to the greater energy demand and subsequently greater pollution in order to meet that need. well Nature is sick of being pushed around and has hit back with a vengeance. it has been raining for the entire duration of daylight and perhaps at night as well, for at least the past week. looking out the window and seeing it grey all the time with the pattering of rain is just more than enough to dampen one's spirits. the constant drizzle just saps whatever energy i have left from my body. kinda like how the Dementor's drain your soul (refer Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban, Harry conjuring powerful Patronus scene).
also been feeling rather low lately. perhaps the realisation that the festive period is over and that the workload can only get heavier, becomes increasingly stark.
had many kickass games with zh, ks, teng and josh yesterday. funky 5man team sia. played with ppl i actually know on the same team for only the first time! still not sure how silencer tiny vs luna and dk can beat sk centaur sven bristleback and sa. well on the back of that sensational comeback win, i went to play lan with my colleagues today and freaking played horribly. was ineffective as treant and pudge. was really annoyed that i basically was unable to add value to the team and dragged down my teammates. wondered how i could change from an anchor into the weak link overnight. hate hate hate dragging ppl down. anw sleepy and am going to sleep and wake up rejuvenated and rdy to wipe the slate clean from today's horrors :D
went out with edward, zhikai and alvin on friday night for dinner. had dinner at the chicken rice stall at lucky plaza and reckon i must've eaten too much cos i was feeling daaaamn full afterward. walked through taka and paragon before going to far east. the idea was to get some exercise. for the eyeballs anyway. aiya all to quickly the weekend is over again.
on a side note, the weather in singapore has been reenacting the perfect storm for the entire weekend. how gloomy.
so today hasnt exactly been a good day for me. firstly it was busy as hell, cos the place was being painted so as u can imagine, desks with computers and wires and shiznits, had to be shifted. obviously the work was thrown to clerks, maybe in some alternate universe the ossifers will actually help, but not in our known universe though. while moving one of the cabinets, my starbucks water bottle dropped and the plastic casing shattered. sniff. still lamenting the loss. apart from that, was also
unjustly screwed over by a LeftyKernel. let's give him a fictitious name, of african origin for example, to make any link even more tenuous. yeah let's call him LeftyKernel z!TanKH'z. so if u were a bug
animagus like rite skeeter, u would've heard the following conversation:
im rushing for time here, so my instead of typing my name in the conversation i will be abbreviated as "me" while z!TanKH'z will be abbreviated as "A55wipe"
precursor: A55wipe asked me to open his windows to let the smell of paint get out. i proceeded to open the windows till a gap of about one sliding pane's width.
A55wipe: why didnt u open my windows?
me: i did what. cos if i open too big then all the aircon will escape then the room wont be cold
A55wipe: i dont want the room to be cold what. i want the smell to get out. why must u question me. cant u just do what i say without questioning me? what's wrong with u?
me: no, i..
A55wipe: (cuts in) what u trying to prove? i don't like ur attitude u know.
yeah thats pretty much the whole picture. i contemplated for quite awhile as to whether to blog this. after all u never know what is gonna get thrown in the public eye nowadays. trends show that the law beckons bloggers nowadays. but in the end, i decided to anyway. just to show ppl how fubar'd the system is. and yes, also because im feeling particularly vindictive. thinking solder[sic]? yeah think of how to apple polish i guess. but i guess it's my fault also la. i didnt get the new memo saying "People! Saving energy is OUT! O-U-T! Fukkare the Earth!" but he should cut me some slack? i mean after all im afflicted by an ailment called.. uhh what was the scientific name again? oh yes. Commonus Sensus.
realised i have a seriously flawed character. i can write so much condemning something heh. after all in a perfect world, we should all forgive and forget and extoll virtues of harmony. but then the world isnt. and I most certainly am not either. eat that.
went to the hospital this morning cos of tt sprained ankle. figured a typical gp wouldnt be able to do much other than to charge me and refer me to a hospital anyway. anw govt hospitals free haha. so thankfully the doctor said that it was merely a sprain cos i was worried that i aggravated my ankle ligament problem from last time. wah now i have injuries to aggravate liao, just like pro footballers haha. still remb last time in bmt ppl were all saying like they can get downgraded due to previous injuries and i was like "i dun have leh!". well now i do heh. well was blogging halfway when i started on supper -
you tiao with cold soya bean drink mmm. damn filling though, could only finish drinking 1 cup, and one packet of drink easily fills 2 cups. so anyway was on mc today since i could hardly walk around much. otherwise wouldve probably gone down town to meet up with nat and im guessing andrew, angela etc since she mentioned they were lunching in town. man feeling of not being able to meet up when other ppl are, sucks. ooo yeah speaking of class, also saw debbie's class calendar on the blog. pretty funky photoshop skills. too bad my printer is on the blink (for like 1 year and running?) otherwise i'd use it heh. oh well since the doctor was so stingy with mc i guess that means back to work tmr!
woke up at 9+ this morning and suddenly remembered, like oh yeah! the guys are playing soccer today. so i decided to get my fat ass out of the house and head over to join them. met up with zhenghao at paya lebar and found out he was with the canoeists cos they sent sulynn off at the airport. so anyway headed down to CCAB and we were playing against some other ppl, lost freaking almost every match. except for one sensational lob from josh which was more of a lob/cross/fluke etc hahaha. anyway after the other ppl left we played among ourselves and i inadvertently sprained my ankle saving a shot from chung. hobbled to sam's house to slack awhile. then hobbled home. and now becos of damn ankle i cant go meet the rest of the sbones at holland v for william's farewell. having said that though, if it were ME organising i woulda made it at changi so can see pom off at the same time. so smart hor haha. kk gonna buy dinner soon.
just got back from mini class outing at esplanade. gosh i luv the place, its only 4.8km from my house as i found out from the cabbie receipt. started out at harry's with pom, zhiyang, weiyuan, andrew, tengchi and myself. found out what margaritas were and also played finger guessing haha. cant really say i like it, the drink i mean. but heck, gotta try once aye? the game had barely progressed when andrew and weiyuan both had several "bimbo" moments as zhiyang put it. was like "5!" then they showed 10 haha. adjourned to glutton's bay for supper. bigshot came, followed by keith and his gf, then angela. the stalls were all still open at like 11+ so considering the lack of ppl, service was fast. haha pom mustve had the most satisfaction among us cos he was pigging out on chicken wings, hokkien mee, carrot cake and stingray. good stuff i must say. anyway he sponsored a significant portion of the total bill tonight so BIG THANKS dude, tho i wonder if u'll ever stumble here heh. well was nice just chatting and stuff for like 2+ hrs? andrew showed me the latest addition to his keys/keyring - the sbone keychain! haha cool, am honoured. was telling him how it was nice that after a whole year everyone still makes the effort to get together at get-togethers, and that hopefully in the future it'll be the same. he said yeah even for 20 years. and here i was just thinking about the next year haha. but good good, 20 years! we have a pretty solid foundation i believe. actually it wouldnt have been unreasonable to suggest that cracks wouldve formed since most guys are in NS and the others are studying, either local or abroad. i suppose the next leap will be when the NS guys are studying whilst the rest start working. hmm all this talk of small and big jumps reminds me of the electron configuration of atoms and the relationship with orbitals etc haha.
was checking out the cards from nat and tengchi. somehow cards can always convey an intimate message from sender to
sendee receiver in a way like no other. for the sender, writing in a card is so personal cos u can fully express yourself without worrying about how the other person will react. and nobody is gonna go like "eh, remb that card u gave me? wah ur msg was damn gay man" etc etc. totally have nothing against more tangible gifts of course but say 10 years down the road, which will be more memorable? a present which would probably have outlived its usefulness, albeit serving faithfully during that period; or a personalised card filled with feeling, bringing with it fond memories of the past?
awww i guess im just overly sentimental la, perhaps even excessively so at times. put it this way: when a higher being was dishing out characteristics to babies born in 1986, i mustve accidentally gotten a double dose of SENTIMENTAL and SHY vitamins, then missing out the CHARISMATIC tonic.
anyway its like 2+ in the afternoon and im feeling sleepy. uhh dang.
hmm took several shots of that wild night but am thus far unable to upload cos i cant find the cable haha.
yes and may everyone have a fruitful and happiness-filled 2006
man utd won yesterday! rahrah! 4-1 4-1 4-1 4-1 4-1 !
