Monday, July 9

went to hospital today expecting to accompany my grandma for a routine endoscopy. the events that transpired however, were far from routine to say the least. not long after arriving, the news the doctor greeted us with was not what anybody wanted to hear: that a growth in the colon that was hindering bowel movement, was cancerous.

im not sure how my dad and uncle took the news, but i was shocked. fortunately though, further tests showed that it hadnt spread to any other organs and the cancerous cells were basically confined to that area of the intestine. this basically meant that after its removal, the main troubles were over, provided the cancerous cells hadnt affected the lymph nodes.

the operation went well i think. went to visit her again just now but she looked in pain. how much i wanted to let her know we were there for her, and to hang in there strong. but yet i felt she ought to sleep in order not to think about the pain. we'll only know whether the lymph nodes were affected when the biopsy results are out, prob tmr or the day after. now though, the operation went through without any complications, and i just hope that none will arise esp during these first 48 hrs.

i love you.